Me , Myself and I

     To set the record straight, I can’t make any excuses regarding my long absence in writing blogs for my Friendster account. Although I doubt that hardly anyone is tuning in to my blogs here compared to the ones I post to Multiply, I truly missed it. And I never knew I missed it until I started opening and updating my Friendster account again.

     Before we start off, I would like to express my awe as to how “Friendster-powered Blogs” have evolved throughout the years. When I visited my blog account just this morning, I was greeted with new terms, designs (themes) and features (such as tags, excerpts and widgets). It really is amazing now and I’m sure thousands of bloggers would simply love the new features. I myself would try them out soon. I’d probably start off with the “Keep this post private” option. I mean, things were great back then but the upgrade takes it to a whole new level. I love the Word Count function.

     It will almost be a year since my last post here. Where should I start? I miss a lot of things. It was a year ago that my family moved to this new house up north. I came to love and specifically hate a few more stuff. And I also found myself growing physically, mentally, spiritually and in all other aspects. I learned a lot more words, I became more concerned with the environment and with others. I knew myself more and knew more about others. Gone are the days where I’m a kid, blissfully unaware of my surrounding and always armed with adults’ excuses about my inappropriate actions. Now as a growing teen, I must take responsibility for my words, actions and thoughts.

     A while ago, I also witnessed how my writing has evolved throughout the years. All those years built up new words, terms and expressions which I borrowed and used for my writing. From writing blogs and reflective essays, now I can put myself in other people’s shoes and write a fictional story about them. And for some reason, although I love my writing style now, I miss the one I had years ago. Looking onto the blogs I wrote some two or three years ago, I was so filled with an innocent spirit. Each typo was a concrete example of my innocence; my youth and my childishness. It was a spirit that doesn’t want to go out into the world and experience the coldness it offers out there. But now I am out in the open, and I miss my life then. Changes aren’t always for the good. No, not always.

     Now that I am in my fourth year of high school and havehad an entrance exam to several colleges and universities, I should be well-prepared. Well-prepared for what, you may ask? I should be prepared for another chapter of my life. We are not getting any younger day by day. And though the opposite is true, we must find a way to live life a better way. We must fill days with greatness so we have something good to look back to some ten or twenty years from now. I can never go back to my childhood, a time I miss dearly, but I can make the most of my teenhood and soon, adulthood.

Daniel Ervin Chua