Me , Myself and I

     Greetings everyone!! This is a blog which I will really treasure because this is one that is dedicated entirely to our most high God. This is about my love for Him, His greater love for me and how God touched my life and how I’m sure I’ll never be the same again.

     I was so caught up in so many worldly things that I entirely forgot who God is in my life. I neglected to spend time with Him or even seek Him. I have this sort of "God can wait" thinking in my head. Whenever I had problems, God was my last resort, when all things failed, it is then that I will seek His help, which is entirely wrong. Also, then I had been going to Church (CGC) for the wrong reasons such as: for friends or whenever there’s nothing better to do. I never really listened to the sermon nor did I sing wholeheartedly during the praise and worship service. I was never filled and came home feeling empty deep inside of me. At Church, I was never really able to focus a hundred percent on God. There were just so many things in my mind: homework, school, stress, tommorow’s activities and other wordly things. Although I did learn a few things from going there, I felt that it is not enough. There is still that huge hole that cannot be filled with wordly things. Although I wasn’t an atheist, and never really did doubt God’s existence, I spent less and less time with Him to the extent I was not spending any time with Him, I did not ask help nor thanked Him for all His blessings. I tried to cover my depression with different gimmicks such as jokes and more wordly things, but ironically, the more I fill myself with these temporary things, the more I hunger and hunger and the more I grew depressed. I felt like I was at the verge of giving up. I did not go there (Church CGC) for a year for different reasons.

     This year, I was invited again by my very nice and close friends. And for the first few meetings/fellowships I still went for the wrong reasons: for friends. But then, I felt that there is something inside me, deep inside me, that is finding inner peace whenever I go there. This feeling cannot be described, although I’m a hundred percent sure that wordly things cannot give you this peace, only God can. I knew this is God’s calling, calling me back to Him. I grew a bit hungry for Him but as a few days passed, that emptiness is back and once again, I pushed God out of my life. As the succeeding weeks came, I grew more and more interested in going to Church. Although there were still problems about me focusing a hundred percent on God.

     But in a particular fellowship last Friday (Nov. 16), I will find myself not the same anymore. It was the first time I was filled by the Holy Spirit. The feeling is so overwhelming and it is truly one of the only few things that can leave a huge mark/impact in your life. The feeling is like an electricity going through your body, no feeling can compare to it. You cannot stop praising the name of God, even though you want to, you can’t. I think this is God’s ultimate plan to bring me back to Him, and let me tell you something, it worked! Now I find it easy to focus on God during Fridays and look forward to going to Church. No one can really compare with God, He is the mightiest/highest there is. If you let Him, He will really come and work in your lives.

     So please, readers, the time is now, allow God to enter in your lives and watch as He works. You will find an alternative purpose in life, one that is more worthy: serving the Lord!

                                                                                      Regards,

                                                                              Daniel T. Chua